Untold Stories Post 60: Accidental Pinch !!!

 

Brain is very strange organ, lot of memories you thought you lost but on a favorable repetitive environment or a parallel situation, the memories comes back in an instant. Mostly my technique is to relate a memories to an emotion and you can remember it forever. But some part of my brain have non emotional saved memories when now can be analysed fresh when loaded to current living. Thus this happened in a fraction of second..and that fraction of second was so important that I could not resist in sharing it..

My recent work as a team member in a buzy American Chain of Restro dose not allow me to sit ideal for long time as I use to do in my previous job as Security. As I enjoy the work mostly now…time for creative writing and possible fiction is getting less and less thus one day when I was lifting a loaded box about 10kg, The freezer door of my workplace coming in contact with the box creating an accidental pinch on my right hand. The pain came in an instant and stayed till an hour or so.. But in that short instant I was reminded of a memories from my school.

My mathematics teacher from Grade 9 to 11, Mr Srisailam Navuluri Sir was definitely the greatest teacher I could ever had, because if I deny that fact I would never have made it through my four years of Engineering, which I did and for that subject I am thankful to him.

The accidental pinch loaded me with a memory that Everyone in class use to be afraid of him for some reason. When communicated with some of my classmates they recalled the same thing which I did in that instant. “The Brutal Bruse Marks of PINCHES.”
Along with Excellent teaching skills he had a bad habit to give physical punishment to school children by pinching them on their arms near the soft tissue. The pinch was both painful and use to leave marks for days.
Being afraid from the bruse marks and pain most of student use to complete their “Home-Work”
He also use to beat children when not paying attention in class. I remember Mr Kartik Manoharan in his school days was beaten up with a wooden duster on his head several times just because of a silly reason that he did not bring bookmark and was looking at his desk thinking something else instead of concentrating on Black Board.

On those days even taking this point to Principal or Home was worthless as “Punishment in teaching’ was an acceptable offence on those days. Even parents use to give examples of their teachers being very strict and beating them up in their school days with a cane stick.

Though I am grateful for Mr Srisailam Navuluri‘s teaching and I could not express my feelings at childhood or at an age or time when Physical abuse was appreciated by teacher’s on student, I would just like to make my point clear. I might have to go over my liberty of expression of words for explaining how I feel, but

“In future, if my yet born child gets an teacher like Srisailam Navuluri and He/She gets a pinch mark from any of his teacher, I will make sure I will find the person, reach up to his house and Put a Shovel on his Ass so that he remembers the pain for his life before pinching or causing any harm to any children ever coming to his surrounding.”

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Untold Stories Post 59: Pocket Money

 

Stepping into teenage is amazing time of life, we have more “friends” which we think we really need. Get exposed to various true stories which were alien when we were sitting at home. And now due to technological upgrade, even get exposed to so much fiction facts and concepts which had hold no meaning to us before.

The concept of Pocket money came to me when I was teenage and just started to learn the concept of Money (as it the theory was not enough).
I grew in a family surrounding where My parents and Sibling were enough to be support of each other and thus everything we needed at early age was provided the time even before the demands. Let that be a delicious food item or a fancy game, demands were fulfilled by the household though sometime taking longer than expected time but things were in house when we needed it.
With new “friends” or I can truly use the word “School Mates” the new concepts were introduced to me and one such top in my mind is Pocket money.
My mates at school who had both working Parents use to give them a sum of money every month or some cases every week. My friends explained me all the benefits of having a Pocket Money. Money that is “yours”, You can spend it all with your “will”, You could save more and buy the food you desire, the games you wish, the clothes you admire and wish you had them.
The concept which initially look foreign attracted to me the most when I discovered its very common among most of my friends. Someday’s later I found out I was the only “different” child who not use to get Pocket Money.
The the demand came as urgency and I asked my parents to provide me with the Pocket money. The Idea was like a little foolish technique for my parents but they anyway accepted my demand and started giving me 10Rs a month. I was happy to get every month 10Rs. The amount 10Rs might seem very small but at teenage in 2003 to 2005 seemed a big deal to me.
I kept collecting the money until it became first 100 then 300, but unfortunately I did not know where to spend the money?

All the exciting things which my friends at that time suggested me I can wish to buy with that money were already present at my home. Thus the concept of “Pocket Money” might not be my cup of tea. (I was a boost drinker at that time….lol)

That time I was not enough matured to analyze the concepts which even I needed in my life or not. Thus anything new and exciting I wanted to install in my living. I wish I can say that I learned the big lesson and moved on, but I did not. I kept repeating same mistakes with now accepting different concepts in life.

In 2013 I came to Australia and now with my University Mates I came to know the concept of “Open Relationship”
In open relationship, you could be married to one person or be in realtionship to one person and with this you are free to get physical or emotionally involved with other persons.
I thought This is an awesome concept, “Open Relationship”
I can have my partner and also enjoy the benefit of having multiple partners. I knew If I would have tried hard enough I could have convinced my partner to accept the new Concept but in doing so…and accepting the law of Equilibrium or equality that would mean I would allow my partner to be in open Relationship too…
And I hate to share my objective “things” so sharing a relationship with anyone was out of Question. Thus the concept of “Open Relationship” how so ever tempting it is, its still not my cup of tea. (I am still a Boost drinker I guess…he he)
So I choose to stick with Monogamy which suited my style of living.

I wish we could all stop the story here….but I took my mistakes a step further…
Getting attracted to various Cultures was the new addiction I had, I tried various living styles, from accepting martial art and learning minimal style of living to going busking on Brisbane streets with friends and trying to blend in…I tried to live extreme ends of living and install it to my living. And recently discovered I am little stingy, little Greedy and of over spending mentally to the things I like, thus none of the pre-defined living traditions matched or satisfied me. Thus finally I decided to accept “my way” how so ever stupid it might be but I will follow My own way of living.

On this post I wont demoralize people to follow any new concept or go with the traditional one. I would just urge every living creature to have the courage to make some mistakes. Try some and discover your own way of living which suits you the best. It may may not match mine or any living tradition in history but if it satisfies you..Go for IT….Live THAT LIFE

If our paths crossed, will see you with a big smile
Till then Happy Day Have a Happy life ahead..

‪#‎tapishdongre‬ ‪#‎utsp‬

Untold Stories Post 58: Sour Grapes (The latest Version)

 

Ohh Feels so good to be able to find time to write again,

You must have heard the story of Fox and the Sour Grape. Where A fox (technically a wild non-vegetarian animal) craves Grapes (a vegetarian diet) and jumps and jumps on the farm but his height was not enough to reach the top of farm where grapes are hanging
Thus concluded and gives Self satisfaction that Grapes are Sour and leaves the Farm.

When I was child I never had question why a non-vegetarian animal would crave for the vegetarian diet. It dint matter as that
was not the actual message of the story. The story wanted to convey that how we fail in life and situation and Blame the situation
for not “TRYING ENOUGH”.

The New version of this story is little general and indeed complex to understand.

I got a free laptop in Kerbside Collection. In Brisbane Australia a Kerbside collection is organised by Brisbane Council once a year per subberb to dispose the Electronic, Furniture, and other big Items which could not be dumped in a Dustbin. And Cheap people like me 😉 put fuel in 2nd hand Car and Run on a Treasure hunt on that particular day. Thus I found a laptop which had No operating System on a Kerbside Collection Day of Toowong Brisbane. I dint realize after repairing and constantly using the system
I started complaining about the Laptop to my mates.
I kept telling them stories of how I recovered the laptop but the Laptop is working too Slow. It is piece of shit. Takes hours to start and open app.
The laptop thought not bought by me received so much criticism than it might have received by its original owner who kept it out for Kerbside Collection in the first place.

Thus one day when I was in phone call with my mate Ravi Kiran from Melbourne, Victoria Australia, Guess what, I told him the story of Crappy Laptop too.
His reply was “have you every gone to Vegetable Market and before buying grapes you taste one of the bunch? It felt so sweet right? And the same bunch of Grapes when you bought them in Kg and yes Paid for them, after coming home the same bunch of Grapes taste sour in your house.”
I said…Yes it had happen many a times.
Then he continued, “its not the Grapes which had become sour, its your mentality towards the Grapes. You tasted a Free Grape and you liked it, just the same way you got the Kerbside Laptop
When you paid and brought the Grapes home, in your case Invested the Time and Skills on the Repair of the Laptop. The grapes started to taste sour, i.e the Laptop which was paid by your time and skills started to be boring, slow and worth less. It was Free on the first place.”

I was again wondering, yes the problem is being pointed out but what about the solution, what to do with the laptop now?
And answer again Lied in the Sour Grapes Story. Either You Throw away the Sour Grapes you Bought from Vegetable Market or you eat them by having the knowledge that You paid for them.
And the day you open your fridge and have a thought to start to through the Sour Grapes into Rubbish bin, The Grapes becomes Sweet again.

Complicated stuff ha…

Keep thinking
Have a Nice Day ahead..

‪#‎tapishdongre‬ ‪#‎utsp‬

Untold Stories 57: The First Suicide

 

At an very early age, I would say the first suicide experience is when you hear the word first time and search in dictionary searching for the meaning of it
It was the similar but somehow I knew the meaning before the incident had an impact.

I never knew her name, why you ask? Because in south Indian locality where I grew up it was most offensive to even approach a stranger teenage girl and I was shy as well.
Me and My friend Ravi Kiran at Class IXth had a regular weekly chess match at Junior Club Ordnance Factory Project Medak Yeddumailaram AP, INDIA. We completed a game and mostly Ravi use to win the match
and if at I won the game there was at least two times re-match before he is satisfied that he is best at Chess. It was more of re-assurance for him I guess and I use to play again to sharpen my skills and have the chance of enjoying the frustration on his face again.
And that day he did loose and wanted a re-match but senior players(senior by age) took the chess board away form us and we had no choice but to leave the Club as we know their game will run for hours and its late for us to take our bicycles home.
We came out of the Club and outside was a kids playground. On the playground we saw her first time on a Swing seat. She was wearing Blue Frock tired hairs towards her back, Spectacles on her nose. I asked Ravi Check the girl at your 9 O’Clock. A direction code which simply meant look on your left and check out the girl.
But before I said so I saw Ravi’s eyes was already sticked on her as her eyes saw him back giving a smile.

At that instance I observed I was already walking two-three steps away form Ravi though we were walking on the same direction. I realized on that moment that I had lost my friend for now. There will be no more chess matches but regular visits to Junior Club will not stop. And same did happen. We visited the same Club almost everyday now. I waited in line to get an Ice-Cream whereas Ravi waited outside to have a glimpse of her. As we both did not know the name of her, I called her “Chashmis” a teaser name meaning the girl with Glasses on her eyes.
We arrived on Club as that was the only source where we could see her again. Our wait was over when she was seen again after a week of time and then on every week.
We use to go home only when she left the Club. This might seem little purvey but once we even followed her in shadows to know her home address. Though now we know where she lived but we still agreed to follow the common courtesy to see her only at Club.
Weeks passed and I urged Ravi, just go and talk to her, or should I do that job for you? Finally Ravi agreed that He will go and talk to her the next week.

The day arrived that when Ravi will finally go and talk to her, the day when I will know her Real Name and stop calling her Chashmis. The day when I get a confirmation that after weeks of struggle my mate finally have a girlfriend or a girl-friend at least. We went early to Club and waited and waited and waited.
I remember it started getting dark and still we waited outside in Cold. I had three Ice Creams that day and Ravi paid the 15Rs for them as it was his treat. Unfortunately our wait never ended, she did not show up.

I said, “no worries dude we will catch her up either when she is going out for tutions form her home or school”, I thought she might be sick that she did’t show up for today and I might be fool to eat 3 Ice Creams when winter is starting already. Its too late lets go home.

The next week I heard a funny story form him that Chasmis was practicing a dance of movie name “Varsham” which means Rain in Telugu Language and to do that she actually filled her room with water to get the leg beating noise of ‘Rain Splash’ and in doing so actually slipped and broke her ankle. Whereas in the actual movie the actress girl dances on Rain water shouting “Nuvvu Vosta ante nen Voddatantana?”
We laughed so hard that I even forgot ask how did he even managed to get this information?

Some week passed and the winter came and we nearly stopped our visits to the Junior Club. There was no motive anyway.
I still don’t know the Source of Ravi’s information but one very late night Ravi came to my house and urged that we talk outside. I took my bycycle and we rushed on a Route towards his home. On the mid way when he was too silent I wonder what surprise he had in his mind to give me this late night.
His words were more cold that the winter saying “Chashmis is Dead”
The government Mortuary was just next to were we were discussing this and I thought Ravi is playing another prank on me
But he was serious this time, He said, she committed Suicide as she got less marks in her pre-finals.

I replied she was not even doing her 10th Board that she had to take a harsh decision like this.(as if if it was 10th exam the Suicide was justified). Ravi said, Yes mate, but first girl I like in this life is Gone even before she knew that I liked her, and we will never even know her name.
I was a class 9th boy and had no clue how to console my friend as I was shocked myself, thus we just discussed the political issues that by what pressure of our society that a child had to commit Suicide. Exams can come and Go but life is just one way track…
We both parted in grief after a long discussion and for weeks everyone was Discussing about the “Girl who Committed Suicide Due to Exam Pressure” on Ordnance Factory Medak.

For some days the Intense Exam Pressure was waved off and Parents cared more of their son’s and daughters life than their marks on ScoreCard. But after some days we all forgot the story of the girl in Blue Frock, Ravi’s first heartbreak and the First Suicide case of my life. My political side of brain was thinking that there is at lest one benefit of her suicide that we don’t have the marks pressure anymore.

But later on after years passed and I was urged of committing the Suicide myself, not because of some marks but a different level of teenage pressure which seemed important that time and stupid at this stage of life. In around year 2009 I took a chemical name “Sodium Azide” form the Biotech Lab I was studding in, mixed it in milk and drank the first morning I wanted to depart the world.
It might be the poor quality of PIET Chemicals or Dilution by milk that I survived but If I haven’t experienced the life till date I could never realized how Stupid was the decision of taking an early termination from life.

Most of my positive post today might be a partial outcome of the shame I had after recovering of the worst times faced in life. I must not compare my life with someone and thus someone must not compare his/her life with me. I neither Support Suicide and Unfortunately not truly against it but its ‘you’ that who have to take the decision as a Choice to Live Everyday and Day after day. And if you choose “Life” instead of death things changes and chances comes along your path, you may never know how interesting it gets when the future unfolds…
So if you have decieded to “Live” this day, this week or this year for now….Lets make it interesting, enjoy to the fullest, make a remark in History and Some-Day die an un-regretful Sign off…..(I Hope and wish my best not by Suicide!!!!)

Have a wonderful Living week Ahead !!!!

‪#‎tapishdongre‬ ‪#‎utsp‬

Untold Stories Post 56 : Watching Ants

 

This post is not an usual appreciation of ants telling you all the fact that
amazes you like ant can carry things more than that of their weights, its lifespan is about 4 to 12 years or
ant uses very high sensitive communicative method or ant is so organised and
bla bla bla..

The more focus I would like to divert in this post is about actually observing ants.

Throughout my childhood after learning lot of amazing facts about the species “Formicidae” commonly known as ants I was very happy and enthusiastic to actually watch something from my stupid boring school book into actual life. This might sound idiotic but I could stare ants for hours together.
This must be waste of my childhood time which could be well spent on plying with friends or learning something good but I was spending more and more ideal time to watch where dose the ant come from? Where dose it Go? The white babies of ant, why there is need to carry them form one place to another? Did someone
break their house? I wish even I knew the inter-species communication so that even some day I could actually know that what did one ant say to the other ant? Or what
does they talk about when every ant stops in a row, tell something then move forward? Do they think we humans are friendly or they are scared with the Giant Species in size
compared to them? Do they ever make Jokes about Humans? And should I even be offended if they make jokes on us?

Several questions run in my mind with many possible correct assumptive answers which today may or may not be so important.
The important thing was as a child and growing kid the more pain I got by travelling throughout India in school age by getting away from all newly formed friends every three years, The ants were there everywhere to cheer me up and entertain me in my growing time.
And the ants reminded me that though friends come and go, but the hardworking and efficient ants are always there in every part India and connection with them will never fade like disappearing friends. I was so amazed that though inter-species communication was not yet established
I am enough fortunate to observe ants and their behavior throughout India is same. They search for food, collect them and in line go back to their respective houses.

After childhood there came teenage and I got busy with the human-relationship understating phase. Friends got closer, parents seemed strange, anger frustration which never haunted me in childhood were the dominant phase in every rain.
Love, fights, togetherness, politics, grouping, religion and even watching the television news was an factor of interest and the observation of ants was no amusement to me. I also started thinking, how so stupid I was in childhood that
I use to observe ants, and I cant believe that watching ants was my favorite pass time.

When even teenage was almost over and I bounced to Australia to struggle for my carrier, I was amazed that more pressure of self learning and self survival haunted me every day. I almost forgot that even If I could have seen ants they could have reminded me that like
every species humans also have to work in organised patter, communicate, carry thoughts and understanding so much heavier than that of their weight and have courage to forgive and move on in life. But unfortunately for first two and half years of my life, I was never able to
see ants in my surrounding. I mostly lived in posh area of Brisbane, Mostly in 2nd or 3rd floor houses which are well equipped and architecture that though Maggot were easily found in our dustbin if remained unclean, the most popular species of India the Ant was no-where seen.

After 2 and half years of living in Australia when I moved in a Ground Floor house in Toowong, Queensland Australia, I was able to observe the ants for the first time stealing food form our kitchen.
Inst-ed of getting angry on them, I was happy that even today when Lot of friends have come and gone in my life. Lot of small time failures and achievement success is gained in my early carrier start, the Ants are still hear doing their job, perfectly and exactly as they were doing it in India.

In any story we can only connect the dots backwards. Thus some of the question (this time logical) rises in my mind. Why did I was not able to see ants in first some years of staying in Australia?
The two possible answers were either I was staying in 1st or 2nd floor houses in Australia but in India due to my dad’s choice of living we only took Ground Houses to live where ever we travel in India. Or I must be living in a high standard society in Australia where paying the bills to maintain my life standard was the only task I was focusing on.
Either ways the smaller in size ants completely disappeared form my observation though they were always present around me.

After paying more attention I realized may be this is what happens when we grow up, the small amusement of childhood vanishes in time and looks silly but the silly things called “worries” which were never a part of life when we were small seems so important now. And overall we even support those worries with understanding that we are more matured and responsible creatures now.
Concluding my post today I would not suggest you to be like ant as they are doing their work sincerely and we should do ours but I would just again focus on point of observation that when Time, Age, Geographical Location and relationship understanding is changed it actually affects our FIELD OF OBSERVATION.
The always present ANTS may seem to disappear…..

Cheers Everyone, Find your ants and have a wonderful weekend

‪#‎tapishdongre‬ ‪#‎utsp‬

Untold Stories 55: Birth of an Entrepreneur

 

I mostly write positive motivational stories as in general, but let me try something different.

The birth of an Entrepreneur is not when he is born or his company is launched, but when a person’s Idea is turns into reality and he earns his first profit.
When I was in Class 7th, situations turned a little similar…
I was studding in Kendriya Vidyalaya Ordnance Factory Medak, Yeddumailaram, A.P, India. On those days every year Annual day was celebrated. On class 7th in particular I got attracted towards money and then started thinking how even I can earn some.?
Starting a process of THINKING is very crucial step in one’s survival as it kicks you out of both your comfort zone as well as the zone of worries.
I believe even if you think on every worry you have one by one, you would also meet up with the solutions of all your worries or a dead end at least lol 🙂.
So the thinking of making money as a garde 7th student gave me a brilliant idea of all time. (at that age and time I thought it was brilliant)
Someone gifted me a Disney Cartoon Stamp Pad. There were 15 Cartoons Stamp in the collection box. I could use any ordinary ink and good quality paper to make Group of 15 cartoons and sell the paper A4 size paper which was practically of no value into at least 1 rupee per page.
I asked my teacher Mr. Diwakar Sir, Teacher of SUPW department Kendriya Vidyalaya OFPM to kindly allow me to install a stall in the School. (SUPW stands for Social Useful Productive Work) On those days even Mr Diwakar trained some of his selected students to sell some of projects, models and paintings made by students in SUPW Class. Unfortunately I was not one of them. Thus on my request Mr Diwakar agreed to allow me to set up a stall in school grounds on one condition, I have to pay him the 50% of cash which I make on the day of sale.
I thought for a while and said, Its unfair, all your other students are using the materials provided by school and having 50% of profits only to sell those exhibits under your guidance. But in my stall all the production would be mine own, then its really unfair to give you 50% of our earning just for the permission of the store. I can give you 10 to 15% of the earnings or maximum 30% of the profits we make.
Mr Diwakr denied my offer, thus to ask for the permission of the store, I went to Principal of the School. Principal was kind enough to understand my current situation and instead of one stall she also gave me one preparation Room for production on those particular day again on condition that I clean the room at the end of the day which seemed a fair deal to me. When I took this idea and permission of execution to my classmates more ideas popped out. Aditya Kochar came with a saying we can also serve Sandwich. Bread is Cheap, we can add some salads, pack that up and sell it for 5 rupees each. At that time I dint see the investment I am doing as the profits seems high and I saw a team was forming. Kanchan Sharma and Jaswinder Singh joined me for production, Abhinav Guptha for sales And we worked hard two days in a row to plan for the store and get everything ready.
After school we stayed for more time in school and also at home to Print the stickers. Bought Bread, Arrange for Stove and Some how Pop-Corns also got involved till the end.

As I was buzy in production and spending more time talking with Kanchan rather than giving my focus on the business, I had no clue how my store is actually running. When I came out after whole production was done for my store, I saw all the decoration we did on our table was taken up by Diwakr Sir, I asked my team why did they took our decoration Cloth, Paper weights and some of my stickers? My classmates had no answer. I went to stall which had our decorations and asked back for the materials we purchased to use on our store. The stall members denied to give us our own material as it was provided by Diwakar sir. I had no time to go to Principal for complaint such issues and thus I along with my mates just snatched the materials we purchased and brought back into our table. Diwakar Sir saw what changes had happen around and did not react instantaneously. Instead when the General Manage came to visit each and every stall and appreciate the hard work done by every student, Mr Diwakar just diverted his path showing all his exhibitions and purposely said, our store is nothing to watch too and asked him to move ahead without giving any attention to our stall.
I was sad that I did not get to meet General Manager as I planned and we all team members worked hard for the store. But moments after GM’s visit, it was our store which got busiest the most. Everyone planned for different exhibits for sale, but no one thought of food to sell on this particular day. I remember Abhinav and Aditya being in the front desk sold last bread and last popcorn in our store and taking our all investments I earned a profit of 15 rupees per person.

Though every schoolmate is apart now, but I was still happy that I was successful in creating a momentary team, execute an idea, cross all the hurdles and most important make some profits for me and my team. I saved that 15 rupees for many years in my life till the time it lost its value…. But the story kept it my mind.

The anger for Mr Diwakar Sir for being Greedy negative person, my interest in girls would divert my thinking in business, Gratitude for Principle and my classmates for being there to make my idea work and adding values to it. Definitely I believe in the school days the Entrepreneur was born. Now its time to face the Real world…and I still believe either a good product or a good story would definitely come out the actions in future.

Cheers Reader
Hope you Have a Week Ahead

#utsp #tapishdongre

Untold Stories Post 54: Entering Inception

 

Currently there are many kinds and types of Religion people follow. I also over heard the statement that “Athiest” are also believers. Atheist have a strong belief that the God does not exist. In all types of religion there are several believes which comes along. These belief systems forms groups of similar thinking people. And sometimes the case happens the reverse. Instead of people’s believes that unite them with the group, Its the Group Rituals/belief system/religion that forces a person to think in a certain way and block the other observations.
Recently after easter 2016 I had some visitors following to my house paying their visit and visits turned into discussions. I would love to share many of the discussion happen in my own house but don’t want to turn the UTSP blog into a ring of fight between god acceptors and rejectors. So I would like to share a story long before I was born and the authentication of the story I just trust my mother who told me this story.

Not so Long before the Telephone was so popular in common man houses, another discovery of science called “TELEGRAM” was famous and popularly used. To get familiar with the system of using a TELEGRAPH, it was taught in Schools. Strange to express but till my class/grade 5th of education even I had to learn how to use TELEGRAPH system for distant communication. The Telegraph system relied on Post-Office, the same office used for Paper Mailing on those days.
A person, if want to communicate to other person having more than 500km of distance for assumption had to go to his nearest Post-Office and ask for a Telegraph Form. Sending The Telegraph was charged per word. I mean if you would like to say “I am fine Thank you” you would be charged Unit Price x Number of words. And for the last line you would be charged approx 2.5$ assuming 50 cents per word. Overall I want to say that the messages had to be as brief as possible to save money and thus only important short hand words use to be used for the distant communication.
Usually the Mail would be taking three to seven days to reach within a country. The telegraph made it possible to convey the message in as less as 3 to 5 hours.

Thus immediate communication was a matter of trouble and with less communication it increased the worries in natural transitions.
One day My Grandmother decided to visit our house. As grandmother was getting old, special care had been taken for her transport. My grandfather boarded her from a Bus which comes from Nagpur to Chandrapur which is a distance of about 165km and takes only 3 hours to reach by bus. As my grandfather already Telegram to my father that she will be taking the bus to reach our home, My father was well prepared to go to the Chandrapur bus stop and receive her. Granny stayed in our house for some days and then decided to return to her own house in Nagpur.
My father did the same and send a Telegraph that which bus Grandmother would be boarding to come to Nagpur so that Grandfather is well prepared to receive her on the bus stop of Nagpur.

After one day my father Received a telegraph from my Grandfather, “GRANDMOTHER DID NOT REACHED HOME. DID SHE LEAVE THE CHANDRAPUR ON TIME?”

The telegraph started a situation of panic in the house. My mother and father both were stressed that how come Granny did not reach the Nagpur Station when my father himself accompanied her to the bus stop. The worried started increasing that does something had happened to the Bus or Granny? Any Accident on Road or Robbery on route? The worries kept increasing and solution did not appear. At that moment my mother suggested that though this might be a superstitious believe but there is a person who can help. My father was introduced with a person called “MAA SHEELA” living in Chandrapur.
Maa Sheela had the power to directly connect with GOD and ask for solution of people’s problem. My father went to her, explained her the current situation and Maa Sheela closed her eyes, talked with God for sometimes and said to my father, “Don’t worry, your mother is safe, She has gone to her known house and will return in two or three days.”
Though my father heard the words of ‘not to worry’ about the matter happening now but alas he was a son, and at this point a skeptic person to even believe someone could talk to God at all. He was only worried for his mother to be safe.

Three days passed and then my father received another telegram from my grandfather saying “GRANDMOTHER REACHED HOME. HAD STAYED WITH HER SISTER FOR TWO DAYS.”

All the worries had gone in an instance but something more happened on that day. The seed of Inception had been sown on my father’s faith/believe system. As the “Maa Sheela” exactly predicted where my Granny was, thus my father started believing on her story and her powers to actually connect with GOD. And till date, he still believes the MAA Sheela system of connecting God and seeking answers is the right way to find answers.
When Maa Sheela Died two-three years ago from now, a new concept was introduced. The story is that the next of kin of Maa Sheela had been passed the powers to and now Maa Sheela communicates to the new person by spreading the light of knowledge by the Framed Pictured on the Room where Maa Sheela use to live. And people including my father still believe that is true.

If any of you reader are still reading the story that I am continuing to write then you might have a mixed view about the story, Either if you are a believer you might believe in the power of Maa Sheela, if you are a non-believer then you might believe in that Maa Sheela’s Power does not exist or she is a con artist. And coming to recent belief by one of the preacher of Christianity said, that the connection that Maa Sheela had was not seeking help from god but from the Devil smile emoticon

What ever the vantage point you may have now, I would just like to express that with story I could just explain or understand how the seed strong Inception of a Belvie system was installed in one man when he was in a mature age of taking wise decisions. I cannot generalize it to all but mostly seed of Inception in today’s era is started when a human is very small. When Human Babies are of very young age and are ready to accept all the stories you tell to them without asking back the logical questions, let that be of Any GOD or any Superhero, The Human Baby believes in the story.
The Human baby enters the point of Inception the moment you start telling the story. Let that be Allah (Peace be upon Him), Jesus (loving you), 35million types of Hindu God and Goddess, The child is believing the stories you are telling him or her. Currently I would say My time to enter any mode of inception is not arrived yet and I am just reading and exploring various religions and their sculptures along with the impact that they cause in Human development or destruction.
I would just urge the current and future parents reading my post, please give your child the chance to choose his/her own belief system. Right or Wrong, let him face the consequences and Trust him/her on the capability that as an Individual, the Human Baby can make a decision best suitable of the time and era he/she is living.

Have a Happy Week Ahead.

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Untold Stories 52: SORRY REFUGEE!!!!!

 

Day by Day my frustration of not actually working in the field that I studies for several years is coming out on my face. I randomly started talking Rude to people.
This is a story of recent incident happened on 1st of March 2016.

I was walking out of Queensland Universty of Technology and out on the Gate bunch of people stopped me asking DO you support Refugees?
I did the same thing what a decent qualified man does these days. I ignored them, changed my path and started walking away.
But out of all one girl was persistent and she walked in front of me with a newspaper article may be one or two weeks back date and asked me again
Do you support Refugees? Do you care what’s happening to them?

I wanted to shout out the truth, I FUCKING DONT CARE. I am JOBLESS, I don’t know how after one next month I am going to pay my rent and I am tired of knocking Doors to HR, private recruitment companies, I have to first build myself to at least support myself before I can even think about supporting Refugees if my heart ever say so.

But did I say that? NO.
I acted more sophisticated and try my best to have a polite, Scarstic conversation as most Cruel Bosses to me Always do.

I asked her back, WHY are you Supporting Refugees?
She was surprised by my question, What do you mean Why?

This was the moment I was honest and I replied, “Till date, who so ever I worked with, Everyone Hates the Refugees and I know their reason why they hate them but never heard a story from the supporter point of view, Thus would like to know why you Support Refugees? ”
She said, No only the RICH GUYS hate the REFUGEES. And people have the saying that they take our jobs, our land and our resources.

I said, they don’t hate about taking away anything for them Everyone I know is self-aware GEOGRAPHICALLY the complete Land of GLOBE Belong to everyone and everyone has right to earn a living and feed themselves, they just hate saying why we have to work for them without our interest and they enjoy the benefits without any labour?
She was still puzzled by my statement, so I started explaining further.

Lots of my colleagues working in various field pay huge amount of Taxes. First of all the mentality of Taxes is like a Penalty on the hard work money they are earning.
On top of that they got angry that Refugees gets money for not working at all. I met some refugees who came to Australia by Sea Route. The Refugee I recently met told me When they started on small boat from their country they were 40 and only 9 were able to survive the tidal storm and reach Australia.
The Refugee said in his home country he was feeling helpless by not earning anything and he even did not have money to afford a journey to a developed country thus he took the serious step. And later he said that after a week of his arrival he got his registration. In next two week he will get his TFN and his 300 $ weekly allowance will start.

I continued. There was a time when earning even 100$ a week was a difficult task to me and my colleagues. And everyone was struggling hard enough to work for money to earn their bread. And on top paying Taxes the share of Taxes going on around 300$ a week to Refugees even when they are not working at all will just make them lazy and they will start depending on the money instead of working.
Thus i asked the question again, Why are you supporting REFUGEES?

The girl Replied in a very strong and firm voice, “BECAUSE THEY ARE HUMANS !”

Her one single line was just like a hard slap on my face. Though not physical but mentally or internally I felt OHHH TAPISH, YOU ARE GONE, You don’t stand a chance against this dialogue.
But I am a stubborn person, I still wanted to know what’s the driving energy or the strong cause that makes a girl wake up at morning, dress up and come to QUT orientation week and Educated everyone about REFUGEES?
So I asked a different question, Won’t THAT will downgrade the Economy of this Country?

At this instance, the team leader who was watching this conversation from some time approached us and interrupted our conversation and said, “Actually not, It is giving more hands for the Economy to build up.
And if you don’t mind we are little busy here. Would you mind….”

I was again shocked, Initially, I wanted to walk off but they stopped me to talk with them and now I am interested in talking and they want me to walk out of this conversation!!! Was I really Mean ???

I said ok and started walking back. The words “Because they are Humans” were repeated in mind. Inside there was guilt that The Girl is actually doing something Good and I am stopping her from doing that. That’s not me.
Why did I do that?

And adding to it, the words “Because they are Humans”, or in fact the word “HUMAN” was not used to resemble just an evolving species on Earth but the word HUMAN had emotional quotient.
It was just a deeper feeling. But then what went wrong. Either was anything on my argument not right? I re-evaluated. All the points I presented in front of that girl were politically Correct. Just why just one link “Because they are Human” Disconnected me to the world I am living in and Forces me to do something good.
Why the hell I was even feeling GUILTY?

For all my life I have learnt to Compete. Living in India and belonging to middle-class family background the only think I focussed was to compete, Competing on Resources, Competing on education, Competing to support or be against reservation. Most of the time I don’t even Realize what competition I was under but I was competing.
Made several friends but it was again taught to us that while you face interview, and if you are asked should the employee select you or your friend in this interview, YOU SHOULD ALWAYS SELECT YOURSELF.

“YOURSELF” that the number one priority what I was giving always. And I am taught I am doing right when I choose ME before anyone. Probably now there is just simple conflict between me, my inner ideal voice and the practical person I am outside.

I guess still strong belief system has not yet establish that I can choose anyone other than me when the choice is between me and someone (when someone being stranger at this instance)

So SORRY REFUGES, Currently I DONT SUPPORT YOU. I can’t even fully support myself in the tough world. Maybe One day…I will.

So The Question is Back to my readers…. DO you support Refugees???? Why or Why not?

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Untold Stories 49: Discovering LOVE

 

No no no….Not a romantic post at all..

The Truth is..at some part of life phase…even you did it…
Discovering LOVE.
It is said that may Super Mad Scientist, Cr-eaters, Entrepreneurs and Great men were once in LOVE. Then fortunately or unfortunately they have to make the choice between what they love the most and they did continue to pursue it..

As teenager even I had those flux. Initially we try to read all theories “WHAT IS LOVE?”
Try to understand and develop our own meaning to all the literature we have till date about LOVE, Let that be poetry, stories, theories and close life examples we try to engulf all.
The next stage is being little brave and actually having those emotions for another human (or other parallel species if more than humans are ever reading my post in future 😉 )
The next stage is complicated but I can explain in simple words that is COMPARISON.
Some day, I don’t know how but every strong relationship gets through or is constantly going through a phase called Comparison.
At teenage the comparison is by the Tel Series we watch, or the books we read. We try or compare to match the character of our partner with a fictional character which one other writer had written in his ideal state of mind (If he/she have…ha ha)
At more mature age we compare it to the Ideal morals what we think are right. For example MONOGAMY is a moral and Ideal in thinking or most of
20th century mass.(And I am no exception)

The comparison with reality sometimes gives us momentary happiness. Thinking I got the exact partner which I was aiming for. Or sometimes in most cases puts us under tremendous remorse. “I dint think you are like this, or I dint imagine you will do like this or You are not the one what I have thought you are to be,” There have been cases when a person completes changes and looses his true identity just to be with his/her partner or other way round, being in a relationship one person changes the other to certain extent that he/she looses his actual identity who initially he/she was before the realtionship or in reality is/would be.

With a very older mental age we discover that LOVE was a myth. And to accept it or live in that myth is our own choice. Currently I am not even close to get that theory right.

But with some failure in relations in past in long term regression of emotions versus reality I realized, I missed out lot of moments in life. When I rethink What I was, What I am and What I could Have done in that situation better.

I disconnected with my first girlfriend without giving her a proper reasoning. I was so angry on her for some years that I passed the grief to many of the people who try to come close to me as I never wanted to be venerable again. I was more stable when someone accepted the pain i created with a happy face and gave me a smile when we departed. The funny thing is I don’t even remember the person’s name who actually made a big change in my life.

As in Beginning I said this is not a Romantic post and I am still kinda stick on my word, I would just like to pass one last message in this post to myself or every little human being who think who can take a point of the little mistakes I did and even he/she will be doing in future…

Don’t Miss the small moments. How so ever small they are, happiness, sadness, anger, frustration, joy, remorse what ever the feeling is…Just experience it in the moments. LIVE IT. If you cant understand this whole 49th post is all about…No worries Take a joint and read it again…
I am running out of contents to write on my blog now that I am expressing..may be that’s why I am playing with you now…
Ha Ha…Na I am kidding…

I would say again, The Myth, Moral, or the Ideal things you are running behind is not really the person you choose. IF you are Discovering LOVE in your own imagination saying its my way or the highway. You May find momentary happiness, enjoy it, make memories. As if at all there is a Myth called ‘True LOVE’ you will get addicted to the person how so ever he/she is. You would not want him/her to change. And contradicting my partial last statement, The person will change to accommodate the new realtionship.
A CHANGE OF CHOICE is in fact NO CHANGE AT ALL….

Enjoy My Loved ones…

Have a great week ahead..

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Untold Stories 48: The Breaking Balloon

 

Ohhh…Good to be Back…!!!!!
I was doing more than 48 hours a week job in field of SECURITY. Whole day standing at one particular place, wish people, make observation and keep thinking, creating stories in mind.

One particular day, I saw one small girl probably age 3 to 5, was playing with a Big balloon with her father. All the time she use to push the balloon upwards, yes she was successful in doing so as the balloon was very lighter in weight that I was able to observe. Then due to its own weight and crossing the friction in air and pull of gravity, the balloon use to come down. Other times she use to throw this balloon towards her father and the balloon use to dash back to her after bouncing on her father’s head. For a robotic field of view this made no sense. There was no level of game-play, no competition and no difficulty to set in this game what she was playing and no reward system but still I could see JOY in her face every time the Balloon reaches her back and she gets the chance to throw it back in air. She was happy to do this again and again and again….

Rarely this play toy i.e Balloon use to come down taking direction of wind and then she use to miss the catch. Even after that the small girl was happy chasing after it. Then by running after the balloon she again got the hold of her toy and started throwing upwards. I could miss my childhood but I am sure I wont enjoy the game-play now as I had remember whats going to happen in next few moments. If you were a balloon player this must have happened with you too. Due to repeated memory or your experience that you cal it.. even you know what is going to happen in this situation even before I write or you read it. But lets assume u dint read my last line and pretend nothing serious point I ever strike in your memory and lets continue with the story..

After some time and several time passing the Balloon upwards in air and catching again, the Balloon lost its elasticity. And lets not blame it on the cruel rock sitting on road doing nothing and now hurting/pricking the only girls play toy; The BALLOON BURS-TED. And now all the air trapped in the Balloon released to the atmosphere creating an Equilibrium with the Atmospheric pressure. Scientifically and in Robotic view its amusing right??? But I saw, the moment this incident occurred, little girl started Crying out a loud. She held the Dead Remains of her Balloon (as if the Balloon was alive in first place) and ran towards her father as if some big loss has taken place. May be in her environment it is a big loss but that I am no one to judge. She ran towards her father and hugged him crying that Daddy The Balloon is NO more.

Her father hugged her back and took the Balloon away from her. Consoled her. (The voices/dialogues I couldn’t hear as I was standing little far from them and air resistance made it impossible for what the father was saying). The girl cried it for a while. Then Controlling her emotions and accepting her loss as real she stopped crying and then walked away in other direction from where they have come.

Standing and working and being in the routine for earning money for bread and survival almost made me into Robotic view, but little of my past memories still confirmed that I am a human when I recollected this has occurred in past too. When I was small, I use to play with Balloon and Then The balloon busted, being small I was not shameful in crying out a loud and taking the dead remains of Balloon to my parents or grandparents. Showing them the Balloon is gone and its no more. Then I remember they use to Carry the Dead remains of the Balloon away form me. Find a place in the Balloon rubber which his big enough to make swell it back. Fill air, tied a not and give me back saying the Big Balloon is now transferred into Baby Balloon, take a good care of it. Parents gave it a funny name called “Ti-cha-kula” And I use to get back in the happy world that the loss is bearable now as Balloon is still alive.

I could just observe that on those days when we were small Parents use to give hope to the young kids that even if the game play is small and even if there is loss, there is still hope that things can be rebuilt. There is no pressure, no need to cry on the current loss and take your steps further in future and some day build your own big world.
This hope keeps the humanity in me alive, and even I’ll try my best to keep the light of hope alive in my future generations that even if they fail in future they will remember the Bursting Balloon and hold the hope to accept the reality and continue more strongly keeping their baby steps into the BIG WORLD.

Good Day EVERYONE, Happy Week AHEAD 🙂

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